What are you so afraid of?

You always find fault with me. You think my life could be better. You disapprove with my drug habits. You think I shouldn’t party to have fun. You think my visions are wrong. You think I’ve changed.

You’re trying to control my life. You try and tell me what’s right and wrong. You can’t fucking influence me like that. What I do is MY choice. Leave me alone, worry about your own life. You abused perscriptions, I use weed. Those are two different types of drugs, don’t even tell me the have the same effect. You don’t know, quit acting like you know. Just because you’re nineteen and THINK you know everything you don’t. Get back to reality already. It’s physically impossible to get addicted to weed. Mentally, it is possible. But do I act like an addict? No. Do I sacrifice every ounce of money I receieve towards weed? No. Just because I like to smoke weed, and do it often, doesn’t giveyou the right to say I’m addicted and that weed is my life. You only know what I tell you, which isn’t a whole lot since you really don’t give a shit half the time I tell you. I’ve secluded myself from telling you nearly everything.

You think sex is my life too, says the man who’s almost never had sex. I love Tre’, and having sex has never made me feel so close to him. Of course, you’ll just say “He’s using you” but do you know him Rob? Really? Do you know half of the things he’s been through? He wouldn’t use me. Get to know him before you judge him. I hate that. Why are you so confident we won’t last? Are you really that jealous that you’ve convinced yourself we’re going to break up? We aren’t Rob, and never will. You’re just pissed I’ve lasted in longer relationships than you.

You think it’s stupid to take college courses now, and get the credits towards college now,  to be able to party later. How would you know if it’s stupid? YOU DON’T FUCKING GO TO COLLEGE. Go to college then tell me it’s stupid.I’m not like you Rob. I like to have fun at parties. I’m sorry I’m not a fucking loser and sit on my ass all day and don’t go anywhere.

You say I’ve changed. How? I’m the same person I was in August, I’m the same person I was in January. So what if I do drugs? Many people do Rob. You can’t conclude that I’ve changed just because I’ve tried shit. I’d never know if I didn’t try. Unlike you, who’s so fucking afraid of doing…anything really. Look where you are.You say I’ve sided with Tre’? How? What situation has there been that I’ve had to pick between you or him? None.

I’ve got a life, a damn good one with a lot of laughs, and memories. What do you have? What are you so afraid of?